Yes football fans, It is that time of the year again!
Put your dancin shoes on because tomorrow is the big day!! Superbowl 09!
Arizona VS The Steelers.
I’m excited. I think it will be an awesome game. I honestly did not expect to see either team play in the Superbowl this year. I’m going for Arizona because they are the closest to Vegas.
Good luck to both teams!
Tomorrow will be awesome….There will be lots of food, drinks and of course people I love spending time with.
Sometimes there aren’t enough words to explain how you feel. Those are the best and most memorable times. Today was an amazing day. I know it will be one of those days I will always remember because I can’t really describe in words how I felt. I feel that at many times in life I have repeated the same situation but always in different ways. Each time I have learned something new. I went out to dinner with my boyfriend and his family today. I love spending time with this family. Today spending those moments with them I felt whole. It is hard to describe but it is like the feeling when you get the chills because something is so awesome. I often think of how I got to where I am and why I am so lucky to have what I have. Sometimes like today sit back in awe and it really hits me how amazing and precious life is. We are all born into a family, big or small, that gets along or not. We will always have them and that is awesome but what I really think is the best part of life is creating a family for yourself that you love to be with. The bond you create with some people is invaluable. There is absolutely nothing better than being able to be totally happy being yourself surrounded with people that care about you like you care about them.
I love weekends. I love sleeping in. Tonight I’m going to see a play at UNLV. It should be pretty good. After that I’m going to play poker with some of my friends. I feel so lucky to have the life I have. I had the best coffee and a cranberry bliss bar for lunch. I’m really excited for valentines day. I love valentines day…well most of the time that is. I can’t believe how fast flies. I am also excited for stef’s birthday in march…she is going 18…finally. Yay. Then in may I will be 20…finally.
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I want skittles! haha
So today I went to work and the main teacher was out sick. I had to fil in for her. Luckily I had Iris there and we developed a great game plan for the day. When we were outside I had to stand in the shade by the grass and I was freezing!! I was kinda standing alone watching the grass and there were no kids playing there. As the sun got higher in the sky I could feel my body start to warm up but I still felt cold. It’s funny how at some moments I feel so strong like nothing could ever bring me down. I can take charge of a room and dominate it. At other times I feel weak and broken. One of my fav kids was very sad today because she just wanted her mom. She cried and cried and followed me around. I felt so bad. She was staring at me with tears falling down her face and she kept saying, Ms.stephanie, I just miss my mommy, I just want her…and at that moment I felt the tears build in my eyes and It happened so fast I could not fight it. I quickly got a hold of myself and told her it would be okay. That was a weak moment for me but I think those moments are good because they bring you back down to reality.
I feel exhausted. Physically and emotionally. Sometimes I just want to crawl into my bed and stay there.
Today has been a good day so far. I went to work and got a bagel. I went to class and listened to Nora Jones. I love her song called, Above Ground. It is so good. Today I have been thinking a lot about feelings. Apathy is the worst thing you can feel. Apathy means you don’t care about anything. It is good to have feelings like anger, sadness and happiness because it means you have true ginuwine feelings. I’d rather be upset over things because that means they matter to me. If I didn’t care then I would not get mad. So in a sense it is a good thing to be angry. I feel that I am at a good point in my life and I’m realizing what matters and what does not. Today is my long day but I get to hang out with my friends. My mom is also coming home tonight and I’m excited to see her.
Anger, Jealously and hurt are such ugly things sometimes. Sometimes I think they just can’t help but come out. Certain things trigger us to become filled with these emotions and we are caught up in them. I believe everyone has been hurt in some way in their life and therefore everyone has some secret goal to not be hurt anymore. Yet the realization is that not everything works out and we do end up getting hurt. Then I think we get disappointedin ourselves and the best outlet is anger. Personally I have been hurt. Been there done that. I have always just wanted to have someone love me, and just me. I don’t like to share, I’m so sick and tired of having to deal with that. When I give my all, I want it all back. Everyone has their own weird things but that is mine. My mom has always told me that no one ever promised me that life was fair but I think it should be ha ha.
So it wasn’t a bad Tuesday…. here is why
So it was a good day. I had a blast at work. Class was sorta kinda interesting. I listened to lil wayne a lot. I dunno….I’m just kinda……yeah. I’m just tired of the same old stuff. I feel like I will never get what I want…..but then again, I always get what I want.
The clouds are building up. I hope it rains. I love the rain. It is so peaceful. So it is the third week of school already. I used to use the term, same shit different day. I think that is true to some extent but I feel that everyday is special and should be appreciated for a different reason. I’m really happy at this point in my life. Today my head teacher told em that my boss was concerned about me. I was taken aback because I had no clue what she was talking about. My boss said that I looked like I was sad or upset all the time. This is not true tho…. I think it is just because she is seeing me in the mornings now and I’m still sleepy. It does make me happy that they care about how I’m doing. I love my job. Sometimes I feel like the world is so jaded and cut throat but when I’m at work it is peaceful. The kids help me to see the good in the world. Now I’m gonna go get myself a jamba juice. Peace out bitches.
Yesterday was amazing. I went to the movies and then I had some of my best friends over to hang out. We played poker and I was doing good as always. Some girls are just born winners. Everyone was having a fabulous time and we all got hungry, even tho I had been eating all day. We took one of those priceless late night trips to Roberto’s. My best friend and my boyfriend both spent the night with me I love waking up and having them here. Then today I got exactly what I wanted for breakfast. I love my life. I feel like I’m surrounded by the best people. I have had a great year so far. Tons of good times. I hope they continue. I really love hanging out with everyone and playing poker or just watching a movie.
